Serentiy

Things have started to slow down at work again. Which is good. It's been kinda of slow for a while, but I haven't had the mind set to get back to work on things full time, until now. I've done little to nothing for work on game development the last two months or more. This was due mainly to my work load, but also due to a lack of focus on my part. I took today to look through my archives and reflect on the things that I have accomplished over the last five going on six years. With the exception of the Conquest For Love proto type and the work that I've done on Troglodyte the last couple of years, I really have not been that productive. Of course when you start from nothing you have to build up knowledge and experience before you can do anything that is really worth while, but the reflection has once again put me in a motivated mindset. I am at a point where if I continue to work, over the next couple of years I am really going to start seeing my efforts pay off. Or, I could simply throw in the towel and move on to some thing else in my life. Doing so would leave me with a feeling of incompleteness however, and would leave me needing to have a redesigned vision for the future.

My current vision is in jeopardy itself. With the lack of work on a project comes the lack of management and a decrease in familiarity with the segments and details of the overall endeavor. It seems that I'm constantly coming back to this place. Doing large amounts for the project in short periods of time and then taking a break only to come back and have to get re-acquainted with everything once again. This is of course my own doing but seems to be necessary in balancing the other aspects of my life. Or, this is what I tell myself at least. At any rate, I'm finding myself once again having to structure my plans for things to come and a detailed plan of attack.

I am going to be blogging with the goal of writing something every day, and too have some progress to write about as well, no matter how small. I'm hoping that it will give me to motivation that I have been lacking.